friends

Today I randomly made a Nigerian friend.

Just a few words:

Caroling today at Cluny Park. Private party of people who turned out to be family of a junior of mine, in 09A14. Lolol. We sang for 1h straight omg. Have never had such a bloody long show before T___T My emceeing became more and more crappy as time went on, but we only had an audience after half an hour (so Yohannis stopped being pissed off, but we were all kinda tired out by then). But as such events go, we had a good time. And oh, the food. <33

Chris is awesome possum. Man, it's a great thing to be a boy sometimes. Plus a r0xx0r beatboxer boy who can be incredibly entertaining lolol. The audience requested random stuff so we jammed Just Dance o.O Totally fun woohoo it made my day haha loves improvising xD (As long as I know the song la. Heh)

After the show Amanda and I chatted with the girl (Caroline) for half an hour. Why did we not spend that half hour fulfilling our more base needs? I don't know. But it was good haha jk nia. Feels nice to get back in touch with Humanz. Need to go back and visit them all again soon T_T

Admin is a bitchh but on my end I'm making a lot of oversights. Totally not focused sigh. Hm. Sleeping at 3.30 may have sth to do with it -_-

Piano recital tmr. Zomg!!

Posting this for the sake of it: if any girls 18+ wants to volunteer for a production by NHB, at the National Museum, for a play in March (3-6 Mar), let me know and I will forward you an email =O Rehearsals will be hardcore 25-28 Feb, and a few hours 1-2 Mar. Lawls.

Had a headache all of yesterday. Probably to do with the 3am nights =/ Still. Had caroling yest, then went to NUS for Nessa's malay drama audition. Quite cool lol there's this dude who was bloody good. Looking forward to seeing more of his acting heh. Nessa's audition was hax, actually. I mean. She wanted me for the half-angmoh girl who despises Malays. Need I say more?? On top of that, my malay accent cmi, I'm pretty sure by my second line half the room had concurred with my mom's boss that I sound like a chinese convert =( =( So my english accent came out damn strongly. The contrast against everyone else's accents was damn strong lol >.<

Sigh. I will never make it in the malay drama scene. ._. ...unless they're looking for just such a character, hur hur.

Yesterday after dance Nic said, "I've finally found your hiphop style. It's animation." =O =O Hurhur thank you, 7 years of malay dance, and a childhood emphasis on posture. So much for needing to pia groove rofl now I know why I've been so phail at it x.x Omg heh. To think I was so intimidated by animation before o_O But watching videos somehow encourages me haha I think for my second lesson it doesn't look half bad. Am really super motivated now =D Wilfy says I should learn popping hahaha Betts and I are gonna try and teach each other, she teach me hits and I teach her control >.< Although I doubt these are things that can be trained... lol.

Sure sign that I am really motivated: spent morning randomly animating in front of mirror, leading to my being late for tuition. Spent afternoon train rides training hits. Have been watching videos T____T I have a low threshold for obsessiveness, i.e. I will probably be far less hardcore than say Betts/Nic/Wilfy, but I suppose that's okay considering my interests are just too diverse x.x Am suddenly grateful that I have no acting modules next year because I will have no lack of practices and rehearsals... I foresee juggling schoolwork with NUS Stage understudy, Nessa's malay drama, acappella practice & concert, and hiphop classes >.<; (Yes, I want to continue. Heh. So much for spamming in Dec only.) Am really worried about this hurr. Plus Nic has been talking about Blast! and encouraging me to audition again, next year is a good year for Blast!, but I don't even know if I want to still... I really am still a hiphop noob, plus commitment overload already, so meh. Maybe see how in Year 2 or... later? Hahaha see how la.

See la. So much for coming to NUS and dropping everything for dance. Inadvertently I am doing everything at the same time. On top of that plans for acappella are forming and the future looks kind of exciting... and busy. Bleahh

Speaking of aca, Yohax agrees with me that my voice tone is naturally choral. Which is why I'd be good in a choir, except I've only been in a choir for two months, ha ha. Nevertheless! I am also good in an acappella group. I suppose. There is hope yet T_______T


In other news, Christmas is almost nothing to me because I have no money to buy anything ;_______; I've been spending as little as possible on food and all the not-that-important stuff (skimping on tailoring material, hurhur). My money is all going to... well. Has gone to my computer. And guess what? I can actually renew my plan i.e. get my new phone this month! (21 months dude... not 24... LOL.) And since I want my tactile keypad so badly (and also because it's bloody expensive), I'm daoing the iPhone and going for... Betts' Sony Ericsson W995 >___<;; IT'S DAMN NICE THOUGH. AAAAHH. (They just released a red one which is damn chio but ahhh doesn't come with a phone plan!) Am going to the Starhub shop tonight to get it. TONIGHT. LOL. Shitz. Now I know how Fik feels, like, all the time ._.

Also, yesterday Nic gave me a souvenir from Taiwan- the COOLEST pair of stockings EVER =D THANKS NIC it's really awesome I will try not to wear it so often that it becomes worn out too quickly >.< LOVE YOUU <3 <3

I had really planned to spend the past 4h playing Dragon Age, but have instead spent it on acappella admin and... uploading photos onto Fb >.< Bloody hell?! Fb is such a time-consuming activity!! Wth x_x Shall play nao teehee ^^

Alright so this is way overdue.

The past month has been the toughest period of my OCS stint, mainly because we went to Brunei for training and the Jungle Confidence Course. Now, I am too lazy and am also probably not allowed to furnish you with details about my training, so I'll talk about something else instead.

I want to become a man. A real one.

I've learned a lot about myself and where I want my life to be headed during the trip. And it's probably because of the veritable adage: Failure is the reason why we can pick ourselves up and succeed. The whole 21 days was all about failures and frustration for me. When you're that fatigued and at the brink of exploding at the person who just mildly irritates you, you tend to screw up a lot. It was like that for me. I didn't even have the time to harbor the fear of failure, as most of us are prone to. All I was doing was just doing. Trying to keep up every single minute without losing focus or falling asleep. And of course, along the way I kept missing out key details and important items.

The most miserable day was when I held a major appointment for the final exercise and just screwed up badly in front of all the instructors and some big shots. That was the all-time low.

And if I were to list the other failures I went through in Brunei, I wouldn't be able to book in in time tonight. But if there's any lesson I've learned at all in the army, it's to just forget it. Just have to forget how I felt yesterday, forget how bad I looked yesterday, forget how my actions sparked off terrible repercussions yesterday, and just focus on today and what's going to happen next. Oh, and remember exactly why I failed and make sure it doesn't happen again.

My PC gave me the stone I used for wargaming on the morning of that exercise. I'm keeping it. Use as souvenir, he joked. It'll mean much more than that.

It would have been damn difficult to ameliorate the crappy mood that I was in had there not been the presence of outstanding individuals who just inspired me like never before. The further you run along the race called life, the more men you meet who are worthy of the utmost admiration and respect, each new one demanding more veneration than the previous one because of the life and values that he lives out. Now, I'm pretty sure everyone hates all the fluff about finding our personal values to live by, but when you meet someone who believes that he's truly living for something and doing his utmost to achieve this purpose without slacking off, you can't help but respect this man.

The Master Sergeant who was part of our training cadre is one such man. The first impression I got of him was shit this guy looks like Jean-Claude Van Damme. If anyone my age used to watch retarded movies when we were freaking young, that's the actor who played Guile in Street Fighter (yes, you can laugh now). His physique and mannerisms and even his hair was exactly like that. After my initial amusement, though, I figured the man is no simple stuff. The way he talked seemed like he did not speak good english, but when you listened closely it was perfect. Obviously, he learned it by himself from scratch. He demanded extreme efficiency from us without making us feel unfairly treated like some others do. He never once raised his voice or bothered to shout at us, and apologized when he swore. How many specialists around do that? He had the highest of standards during our rifle inspection. He made us the first OCS wing ever to have a successful initial inspection without any screw ups.

I had the chance on the last night to just sit around with other dudes to have a long talk with him. And as it got later only me and tedkin were still around at 3am talking about his life. You seldom get to talk to an N-level SOF Ranger who's so motivated about what he's doing that he advocates waking up every morning and psychoing oneself into loving the fact that one is going to bash through jungles and roll in the mud. According to him, that's the only way you'll be satisfied with life's shit.

And unfortunately, due to unforeseen circumstances, I have to end this post abruptly. I will continue another time.

So this morning Hurwitz called and said he'd be in town, but tmr he'd be going to Genting. So I called Sam and told him the whole story of my gaming woes. He said "it's okay, I understand, you're talking to a boy after all" and allowed me to pangseh him for lunch >.<;;

THEN I WENT TO SIM LIM AND BOUGHT A DESKTOP PC =D =D =D

(hahahahahhahahahahhahahah)

THANK YOU HURWITZ for going through the price lists and providing invaluable opinions!!! I am quite greatly indebted to you, again. Yay for finding "the handsome one" who was also v helpful. I'm really quite happy with my stuff now. Will spare the details because I just realized some people would be like completely uninterested, so whatever lol. I cannot wait aaahh! I kinda need an OS now though D: Which means I can't play tmrrr aah man =( =( I can play on Saturday though! Maybe! AAHH

YAY I HAVE A GAMING PC NOW =D =D

Okay goodbye

I'd actually planned to write a more coherent entry, but I got distracted by online chatting omgg chatting is all kinds of evil T__T I was talking to Nic and Ben though so yay! =D The internet totally keeps people connected no matter what country they're in. Except now it is late, again. Sighh

Today's caroling might've been the first time I'd ever gotten so pissed at a client. But well. There were plenty of reasons to get pissed. In the end though the HR lady from the client's client company was a lovely lady and gave us dinner so we put it all aside. Mmm, that lovely bread and butter pudding!!

Also wanted to blog about dance. Managed to go for Monday and Tuesday classes, uninterrupted by extra aca shows heh, and I'm so glad for that. Betts went with me on Tuesday for hiphop and Terrance joined us for animation WOO. The hiphop choreo was mildly gangster, and the animation was SO FUN OMGG ^_^ I think I will stick to waacking and animation this month lol... anyway the girls' hiphop and the LA/lyrical hiphop classes are more popular =/ And hence more crowded... haha. Betts and Terrance said I did quite well so yay! Am feeling much, much better after this class... not like how I felt after the collabo workshop with Ash Ali and Zaihar >.< Man, that was mad nuts.

Wow, suddenly I use a lot of ellipses. Wonder why o.O;

Walking to the mrt station with the aca people was a riot lolol

GOODNIGHT

Uh

Some years ago, I made the decision that I would only need a laptop that can handle basic processes like documents, the Internet, etcetc. This was a good way to make sure I couldn't play any games, especially during school term. This worked extremely well for me.

Except now I'm really regretting it >_______< I CANNOT PLAY DRAGON AGE WAAAHHH

*rant* *rave* *storm about* *wail*

It's at times like these when I really wish I had a boyfriend. T___________T

Excuse me while I go lament the phail that is my life

Well, I'm pretty sure there weren't any overlaps. I got my first CD when I was seven and it was.. wait for it... Aqua. The next was the Spice Girls and I got hooked to them since - bought myself 2 CDs, 1 karaoke VCD, 1 tshirt, 1 pencil, 1 notebook and various other fangirly things. I was this young 8 year old raving on and on about how Sporty Spice was so cool (though now I think Posh was always the coolest). Everyone else liked Emma Bunton though.

Now, as in right now at this very moment (because favorite song lists never really stay permanent), my favorite songs are:

1. Am I Wry? No - Mew
2. We Looked Like Giants - Death Cab For Cutie
3. Night On Fire (Carlos D Remix) - VHS or Beta
4. Half Year Sun - The Promise Ring
5. A Nervous Tic Motion Of The Head To The Left - Andrew Bird
6. Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band
7. Heart - Stars
8. Elevator Love Letter - Stars
9. 156 - Mew
10. Sunlit & Ascending - The Appleseed Cast